Posted on: 04/22/21 11:26PM
As for me jerking off to weirder things, I think I know the feeling. When I started jerking to oppai lolis (lolis with massive fucking tits) and ridiculously curvy adolescents, I felt weirded out and ashamed by myself. I felt I was slowly transforming into some sort of creep and that I needed to stop masturbating to prevent becoming a true creep. But as time passed on, I've accepted that it's all just fantasy, and it's what I like. Then I started to embrace jerking off daily. However that could be that I've never really gotten into anything more weirder than that, so I'm blessed in a way.
Sometimes I do I should abstain myself, but I feel there are more important things I should be focused on. Not just cutting out masturbation because it's the most obvious thing to cut out, and something others could judge you on.
Yeah, been there done that, too, loli as well for me but also mixed in with other 'ickier' kinks, to boot.
I masturbate nearly daily anyway - for a lot of men especially (but some women too) that's a 'high, but normal' variation of sex drive. If you can manage it daily because it's fun and you genuinely have the time, then, there's no harm. I knew this about myself and knew that if it was genuinely a bad idea or I am simply too busy at the time, I don't do it, because I have years upon years of actual proof of my behaviour in situations such as family or business trips, times of extremely busy workloads from different angles, illnesses etc.
As for what I enjoy, I know that I'm just into cute stuff, that I've also always been OK with cartoons, human and otherwise as a sexual concept, that I can still perform sexually for my wife in many other ways that don't rely on impossible fictions, and that whatever I generate in my subconscious is fine, because there's literally nothing coming to harm from it, and that's the entire point. So many things that I would (or do) enjoy in a game or in a sexual fantasy scene, would be disgusting in real life, because why wouldn't it be? I love first-person-shooters and hyperviolence as well but I know my reaction to it in person is totally different. Same for sexual concepts. A loli is a drawing of the concept of a child, but through the lens of a grown adult's post-puberty, sexualised world view, and through the distorting views of anime styling. It has as much to do with actual children as a game of Silent Hill does, and I question the actual sanity of people that would disagree with that. Yes, there are people that use it as a 'wedge' for children and as a legal (in some countries) proxy for illegal, nasty stuff, but... I'm not one of them. And I know that, so I have no guilt - because I have nothing to feel guilt for.